I have to say though that this wasn’t always the way I used to feel.
I wasn’t getting up at the crack of dawn, publishing children’s books, photographing weddings and exercising whenever I could.
Mondays were always the hardest and the most heart-wrenching.
And there’s no easy way to describe how close I came to being at rock bottom. I couldn’t see my way out of what seemed like quite a hopeless place.
I was missing my little one, and only getting to see him for half an hour a day. Now I know that all of you here will get it. Will get that it was no wonder I was feeling low, and that nothing was clicking at the time. Because at some stage as you have been juggling work and looking after the little people in your life, you have faced this too, or maybe you still do.
Maybe you work in an environment where it’s just expected that you stay late on certain occasions instead of heading off when you usually do. And it’s frowned upton when you do walk out even though if you don’t, who will do the nursery or school pick up?
And some describe it as guilt. I’ve never felt guilty, it was more a sense of loss because this time is so precious and each and every moment counts. Before we know it they will be taller than us, earning more than us and going out into the world on their own.
But here’s the thing that changed everything for me.
I started to look at things in another way. I chose to focus on the time I did have and I made every single moment count and I still do.
And I changed my mindset. I decided to be positive, to view the world in a different way. And lo and behold things started to change. Opportunities appeared, I pushed myself out of my comfort zone, and I became an award-winning children’s author and copywriter for small business owners and I started to help other authors starting out on their own journeys.
And then I launched the Working Mum Association because I looked at what I could do, and I went for it. I set goals, I strategised and I believed in myself and what I could achieve in terms of helping others. And not wanting any other working mum to go through what I did.
And when you hear at bedtime, “Mummy I love you, you’re my best friend,” then that’s what makes everything worthwhile. Because you know that you’re doing something right. Somewhere in amidst the hustle, the juggling and the crazy hours – that little person really does appreciate everything you do. Even though sometimes it can feel as if they don’t.